More than chocolate...

Sometimes...

2011-06-02T20:32:00.000+02:00

Sometimes it is the smallest of things that can mean the most...Thank you darling, from the bottom of my pirating heart.

Yours forever, C x♥x♥x

We just gotta try to...

2011-05-20T14:41:00.001+02:00

Cheer up, Sandra. You know what they say.
Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad.
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle,
Don't grumble, give a whistle!
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...
...always look on the bright side of life!

Always look on the bright side of life...
If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten!
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing,

When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps,
Just purse your lips and whistle -- that's the thing!
And... always look on the bright side of life...

Come on!

Always look on the bright side of life...

For life is quite absurd,
And death's the final word.
You must always face the curtain with a bow!
Forget about your sin -- give the audience a grin,
Enjoy it -- it's the last chance anyhow!

So always look on the bright side of death!
Just before you draw your terminal breath.
Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it.

Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true,
You'll see it's all a show,
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you!

And always look on the bright side of life

Always look on the bright side of life

http://youtu.be/WlBiLNN1NhQ ;)

Ont...

2011-03-28T21:18:00.000+02:00

Finns en liten plats i mitt hjärtat som har ont.

Finns ont därför att jag saknar dig.

Jag älskar dig mer än allt annat, mer än choklad.

Du är mitt allting.

Nu och for alltid.

Puss och kram

Every second brings me closer to you...

2011-03-18T13:20:00.000+01:00

My darling don't you worry...

And all because

Get to know me...

2011-03-10T17:32:00.001+01:00

As if you don't already! I just thought seeing as I read yours you might want to see my answers for these questions too:

1. Hur gammal är du om fem år?
36 – gosh how depressing!

2. Vem tillbringade du minst två timmar med i dag?
You my darling

3. Hur lång är du?
5’7” or 171 cm ish!

4. Vilken är den senaste filmen du sett?
She’s all that – not she’s the man!

5. Vem ringde du senast?
You did!

6. Vem ringde dig senast?
You I should imagine

7. Hur löd det senaste sms:et du fick?
Erm – “K x” From Mum!

8. Föredrar du att ringa eller skicka sms?
I always prefer SMS as I hate talking on the phone

9. Är dina föräldrar gifta eller skilda?
Divorced

10. När såg du senast din mamma?
24^th September 2010 - ish

11. Vilken ögonfärg har du?
Hazel Brown

12. När vaknade du i dag?
I woke at about 7.40 and then again at 8 when my alarm went off and then again at 8.15 when I finally got up!

13. Vilken är din favoritjulsång?
Mistletoe and Wine by Cliff Richard

14. Vilken är din favoritplats?
Wherever you are but ideally at the Stugan

15. Vilken plats föredrar du minst?
Waiting rooms – just generally and for any reason I really dislike them

16. Var tror du att du befinner dig om tio år?
I will be living with you and our babies, have a nice job where I am happy, if not very well paid enjoying the life we deserve together

17. Vad skrämde dig om natten som barn?
Things under the bed, mainly snakes I think it was

18. Vad fick dig verkligen att skratta senast?
I often have a chortle to myself inside even if I don’t always show it. I think most recently it was when you suggested a tree was growing out of the planet on my face ;P

19. Hur stor är din säng?
180×200 cm – I will take your word for that one!

20. Har du stationär eller bärbar dator?
Lappie lappie laptop

21. Sover du med eller utan kläder på dig?
It depends on my mood and where I am. If alone with you at home I am keen on sleeping naked but if anyone else is around I will be maxed out in PJs!

22. Hur många kuddar har du i sängen?
As you know I have 2 but 1 lives mainly on the floor

23. Hur många landskap har du bott i?
Is that countries or counties? I have technically lived in 3 countries and 5 counties.

24. Vilka städer har du bott i?
Chester, Durham, Leeds, York, Dyserth, Umeå

25. Föredrar du skor, strumpor eller barfota?
I get chilly toes or else I would be barefoot more often. I guess it depends where I am and what I am doing – I am hardly going to walk the dog barefoot in -30 now am I!

26. Är du social?
Not so much anymore, I think working for myself has turned me into a bit of a recluse, I am happy to be sociable but not very good at feeling comfortable with it.

27. Vilken är din favoritglass?
Pralines and Cream Haagen-Dazs (hilarious spell check picked that up and corrected it!)

28. Vilken är din favoritefterrätt?
Hmm tricky – I am thinking your blueberry pie actually wins out these days although previously it was a tossup between apple crumble and lemon meringue pie

29. Tycker du om kinamat?
Hell yeah I do, ideally in buffet form – bring on the noodlies!

30. Tycker du om kaffe?
Yes and if the kettle is on then yes please!!

31. Vad dricker du till frukost?
A cup of tea often is my entire breakfast and I can’t function properly through the day if I miss it!

32. Sover du på någon särskild sida?
Now that depends on how you define sides – if looking AT The bed I sleep on the left but in bed it is the right – let’s just say I sleep with you on my left! Although this can vary as I tend to sleep closest to the door to keep you safe from intruders, least they would get me first.

33. Kan du spela poker?
I can play Texas Hold em and try my best at Chicago but I still don’t really get that

34. Tycker du om att mysa/kela?
Nah! Joking, of course I do, no better feeling than snuggling with you sweetheart

35. Är du en beroendemänniska?
Is that asking if I am dependable? I would have to say yes, I would rather chew on my tongue than let people down

36. Känner du någon med samma födelsedag som din?
Nope, although my cousin is the day after mine and his wife the day after that

37. Vill du ha barn?
Yes, as soon as possible, I would love to have little ones running round and it makes me smile from the inside out just to think about it

38. Kan du några andra språk än svenska?
I can get by with English if I have to and can order a baguette in French!

39. Har du någonsin åkt ambulans?
No and am in no rush to change that

40. Föredrar du havet eller en bassäng?
Pool, at least you know what’s at the bottom of that and the only slimy thing to brush against your legs is the pool guy!

41. Vad spenderar du helst pengar på?
I would spend my last penny on you my darling

42. Äger du dyrbara smycken?
Not especially. The bracelet from Mum, my ring from you and that is about all really.

43. Vilket är ditt favoritprogram på tv?
Grey’s of course, and friends and big bang and glee

44. Kan du rulla med tungan?
Hehe, yes, want me to show you?!

45. Vem är den roligaste människan du känner?
My brother as long as I am in the right mood for it, he is a bit of a nutter

46. Sover du med gosedjur?
Yes, you! Kidding I only sleep with you my love although if I am blue sometimes Ninny might sneak in too

47. Vad har du för ringsignal?
I think I am back to The Killers Mr Brightside, your ringtone is Everytime We Touch

48. Har du kvar klädesplagg från då du var liten?
I used to have a cute sunhat which I kept in my chest of drawers from when I was a baby that Aunty Sally made me but I have no idea where it is now after all the moves

49. Vad har du närmast dig just nu som är rött?
My jumper, well technically your jumper but shhhh

50. Flirtar du mycket?
No, I don’t flirt, I am just naturally charming ;)

51. Kan du byta olja på bilen?
Haha, wouldn’t know where to start but I bet I could in an emergency if I had the internet handy

52. Har du fått fortkörningsböter någon gång?
Yes, shame shame. 3 points and a £60 fine in 2006

53. Vilken var den senaste boken du läste?
Hmm I am reading Demons and Angels by Dan Brown now, I can’t remember the one before that?

54. Läser du dagstidningen?
Not usually. I occasionally read The Daily Mail online or The bbc or Aftonbladet or VK

55. Prenumererar du på någon veckotidning?
No - I used to get the Beano monthly, does that count?!

56. Dansar du i bilen?
I would given half the chance, love a boogy and sing when speeding around

57. Vilken radiostation lyssnade du till senast?
Mix Megapoooool I think

58. Vad var det senaste du krafsade ner på ett papper?
Notes about a clients website

59. När var du i kyrkan senast?
The Christening of young Vincent in January 2009 I think

60. Vem var din favoritlärare på högstadiet?
Hmm, Mr Tierny the drama teacher, mainly because he was good at coming up with excuses to get us out of other classes!

61. Hur länge har du campat som längst i ett tält?
I have camped for a week on many occasions, mainly with guides but as a grown up too.

62. Vem var det som senast gjorde något extra speciellt för dig?
You my darling, you smiled at me just as I needed a lift

63. Vad lyssnar du på just nu?
Me typing – good point, let’s have some music

64. Har du varit med i tidningen?
Yes, I was in the local Swedish paper when I turned 30 (!!!) and I was in the paper when I won the Young Entrepreneur of the Year in 2003. I was in a few times when I was younger in local papers for fund raising and sports stuff

65. Vad är det konstigaste du ätit?
Tricky, Oh erm, what’s it called – nipponsoppar?! Never again!

66. Vem såg dig naken senast?
You – or does the dog count?!

67. Vad är det för färg på din tandborste?
Purple and yellow is it?!

68. Hur imponerar man på dig?
I am impressed when people smile through adversity and see the positives when most others would see the dark

69. Vem ringer du när du är arg/ledsen?
I would talk to you wherever you were so I guess that would involve calling sometimes, shouting seems a bit extreme if we aren’t together

70. Har du någon piercing?
I do, but just my ears

71. Din största vinst?
My goldfish won 2^nd prize in a pet contest when I was 8? I guess winning the Young Entrepreneur Award was pretty major.

72. Civilstånd?
Engaged, soon to be married

73. Vilka hemsidor besöker du dagligen?
Hotmail, Facebook – That’s all really regularly

74. Är du fåfäng?
Not so much vain as I don’t really care what I look like, although ideally I want to look nice. I am more proud than vain – I want to feel proud of myself which I suppose is a form of vanity just not so much in the physical sense. Although I do get paranoid about my weight and people whispering about me or thinking I am awful, does that make me vain?

75. Ångrar du någonting du gjort?
Unfortunately quite a lot. Mainly financially related and stupid decisions made. I mainly regret going through with the house purchase in Dyserth or not selling it 4 years ago when I moved. I also regret losing touch with so many friends over the years.

76. Hur gammal är din pappa?
I have no idea! 61 or 62 – 61 I think!?

77. Vilket är ditt drömjobb?
I am not sure. In some ways I have my dream job but I know I can’t hold onto it. Right now my dream job would be doing what I do now but getting paid a monthly salary with benefits for it. Failing that I will take anything I can get to support my family and make our dreams come true.

78. Finns det något du verkligen skulle vilja göra men inte haft tillfälle, tid eller råd till?
The main thing I want to do that I haven’t yet though is have children and build a family. I would like to travel more too and see more places.

79. Vad har du haft för husdjur under ditt liv?
Hmm, Rabbits (3 over a number of years I think), a gold fish (The one that own the award!), a cat called Elliot (which came to a tragic demise on our driveway when mum was parking one day), peggy (partly) and of course Cassie

80. Berätta tre saker som dina läsare antagligen inte vet om dig?
This is tricky as I am quite sure you know everything there is to know about me.

1) I think I prefer diet coke to regular!!!

2) I wish I could change who I am or something about me about 12 times a day

3) I am terrified of letting you down and taking you away from your family to a life you will hate.

81. Svär du ofta?
Yes, I am a proper potty mouth

82. Sverige när det är som bäst?
Long summer days at the stugan, bathing and reading and chilling. Although I do love the snow too

83. Kan du åka slalom?
Nope! Not that I have tried but looking at the mountain last week made my knees wobble, I don’t think I could take the height and speed combination!

84. Vad har du ätit i dag?
A surprisingly nice bowl of noodlies

85. Vad har du för utbildning?
I have a University degree – BA (Hons) Psychology, 4 A levels and 9 GCSE’s

86. Vilken kroppsdel är du mest nöjd med?
It used to be my back but then it got back fat. I think maybe my eyes but they also depress me sometimes as they get such dark circles. Boobs maybe? They don’t let me down, yet!

87. Vilken kroppsdel är du minst nöjd med?
My fat belly, bum, arms, face and thighs

88. Vilken är din bästa egenskap?
I care. I care about people, how they feel and how they are, often too much. I find it nearly impossible to turn my back on someone.

89. Vilken är din sämsta egenskap?
Self-doubt. I find it incredibly hard to believe in myself and have self confidence. I second guess everything I do, think and say and am convinced my opinions are either wrong, to be questioned or not of importance anyway. Pride could be another bad one, sometimes it blinds me to knowing what is best.

90. Nämn två historiska personer som intresserar dig?
Mozart and Shakespeare

91. Saknar du något?
I miss the confidence I once possessed. I used to think I could change the world but not in an arrogant way. Once I walked into a room and didn’t care if I was noticed and so usually was, now I slink in and out of rooms hoping no one will see.

92. Är det viktigt att fira födelsedagar?
I am not a fan of my own birthday as I never remember any really good ones growing up and feel awkward being the centre of attention at my own celebrations. I think it is important to celebrate other peoples though and like to try and make people feel special and spoilt.

93. Vad gör dig ledsen?
Ignorance and undeserved meanness

94. Vad gör dig glad?
Making you smile will always make me happy. Experiencing new things with you and seeing you laugh

95. Har du varit gift eller förlovad?
Yes enagaged

96. Vad ska du göra i helgen?
Watch the final of Melodifestivalen of course, drink one or two beers? Maybe see some friends or family? If not then take you and our dog for a lovely walk J

97. Vad är det knasigaste du gjort?
Jumping from a 21 meter bridge into a river? Not facing up to life sooner would probably be more daft in reality.

98. Vad har du för laster?
Eating stuff that isn’t exactly healthy…but it tastes so good!

99. Vem är din förebild?
I don’t actually think I have one. Any normal person who picks themselves up from the depths of adversity to come back stronger than before.

100. Vad ska du göra när du svarat klart på alla frågor?
Take fatty fat for her walkie and give you a kiss my darling xx

How many did you guess right?! Am I the person you thought I was?! xx

Will you be my Valentine?

2011-02-14T09:04:00.001+01:00

Remember on our first valentine

When we went out intent to dine

Your mum showed up, it didn’t matter

We barely ate, we got no fatter!

That night will always be something true

As that was the time I promised to you

All that I am and all that I’ve got

I’m afraid I’m not much and that’s not a lot!

You’ve stuck by me through thick and thin

To think of it makes my heart grin

I don’t deserve what you do for me

Into my life you brought me Glee!

I may not be the great romantic

And often I am quite pedantic

But in my heart I’m Casanova

Always for you I would bend over…

I’ll never know how I deserve

To be with you, you little perv

I thank whatever brought us two

Together this way, I really do.

I joke and banter but you know

From your side I’ll never go.

We’re stuck together me and you

Tack och lov for super glue!

The year of two thousand and eight

Brought us our first wonderful date

I stand here now in twenty eleven

To say being with you is like being in heaven.

The time is here to be straight and true

And declare how much I do love you

My angel, my princess, my love, my dream

Nothing comes close - you are supreme.

Remember this?

2011-02-03T17:44:00.000+01:00

It can't be possible....

2011-01-24T10:51:00.000+01:00

I never thought it could be true

To feel love more than I do

But then something happened within

It was like my love had developed a twin

My heart is now twice of the size

Of this fact there is no disguise

I adore you more than the stars

This feeling could send me to Mars!

Every day spent with you is a gift

My mood you always can lift

My darling believe me it’s true

That my love for you it just grew.

Every time...

2011-01-11T17:15:00.002+01:00

...you bring me a cup of tea or coffee when I am up to my eyes in work, I love you just that little bit more.

Thank you darling, you really are the greatest xxx

Just the way you are..

2011-01-05T10:56:00.000+01:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

New Year Resolutions

2010-12-31T13:31:00.000+01:00

My resolutions this year all have a theme, and that is that everything I do, even more so than now, I will do for you...

I promise to put your first above all else, no matter what
I promise to leave this year behind me and not let it darken the year to come
I promise to be more of myself and not the person I think I should be
I promise to try and relax more and not take myself and life so seriously
I promise to try and have the grace to accept the things I cannot change and have the strength to change the things I can
I promise to stand by you and support you, to see to your every need
I promise to tell you every day how much I love you and how wonderful you are
I promise to try and make our dreams become reality and not let things stall us any longer

I will try my best with all these things and build us a future that we can touch, not that we can only dream about. I might fail and I might lose track of these things but with your help I will find my way back because I know that you believe in me.

You mean the world to me and this year my main goal will be to show you how much you mean to me so that you never feel insecure again.

Happy new year my darling, may it bring you all the things you wish for and more.

2010

2010-12-31T13:20:00.001+01:00

I am sure you are as happy as I am to be seeing the back of 2010, although there have been some amazing parts, the highlight for me was getting engaged to you, the love of my life, you completed me and made me the happiest person alive. Things haven't all been so bad:

You graduated with amazing school grades, which I am so proud of you for
I finally quit smoking once and for all
We have finally got somewhere with training our puppy so she isn't a monster any more
I can now speak more Swedish (finally!)
We have had our first holiday abroad together
We took the first steps to becoming a proper family by getting engaged
We stuck together and grew stronger through some of the hardest times I have ever had to face
We had a visit from my Mum, which we thought would never happen
With my house on the market we are on our way to breaking the shackles to my old life so we can move on
We fell even more deeply in love than ever

I am sure there are more things but these are the ones that stand out for me. With this year behind us and us standing stronger than ever then next year can be nothing but better, out with the old and in with the new. Thanking you for sticking by me and believing in us my darling, I could not have got through this year without you by my side and I will be forever grateful. Tonight I will be raising every glass to you: my love, my best friend, my fiancé, my princess, my world - because I really do love you more than chocolate.

Thank you

2010-12-26T10:24:00.000+01:00

To my sweet darling girl,

I just wanted to thank you for one of the best Christmas' I have ever had. You have spoilt me thoroughly not only with gifts but with love and laughter and happiness too. I am so lucky to have you and that will always be the most precious gift of all.

I am so happy and privileged that I get to spend every Christmas for the rest of my life with you, that will make all my Christmas wishes come true.

I love you darling, with all of my heart, here is to an amazing new year.

Yours forever, Cxx

God Jul!

2010-12-23T09:05:00.000+01:00

From me..

2010-12-21T17:23:00.000+01:00

...to you, with love xx

It will be me...

2010-12-21T12:51:00.001+01:00

If you hear a voice in the middle of the night
Sayin’ it’ll be alright
It will be me

If you feel a hand guiding you along
When the path seems wrong
It will be me

There is no mountain that I can’t climb
For you I’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me

If there is a key that goes to your heart
A special part
It will be me

If you need a friend
Call out to the wind
To hold you again
It will be me

Oh how the world seems so unfair
Creating a love that can not be shared
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me

Past the ever after there’s a place for two
In your tears of laughter
I’ll be there for you

In the sun and the moon
In the land and the sea
Look all around you
It will be me

There is no mountain that I can’t climb
For you I’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me
It will be me
It will be me...

A perfect moment

2010-12-20T13:12:00.000+01:00

I thought I would share with you what my all time favourite date has been so far. Not that every date hasn't been amazing and I have of course loved every single one but this one will always stand out in my heart as it was on this date that I knew there was no where else I would rather be or anyone else I would rather be with than wherever you were for the rest of my life.

It was on Wednesday 25th April 2007 during my first ever trip to Umeå. We had met in person for the first time only a week before and I already knew I was pretty hooked. You suggested we go and make a fire and we bought some marshmallows from the candy shop on our way. We walked to a lovely secluded spot which to me just looked like heaven. It took us ages to get a fire going but I refused to give up and eventually as the sun was setting the fire started not only in the fir pit but deep in my soul. We had our marshmallows, not all of them ended up in our mouths if you recall and then afterwards we just sat in each others arms and watched the beautiful colours of the sky over Nydala...a truly perfect moment.

It was at that moment I knew that this was special, that I would be coming back to Sweden someday and that it was you who I was destined to be with for all time. I knew it was you who I wanted to grow old with and have a family with, it was you who I would give my heart to wholly and unconditionally for the rest of my days.

For such a simple date it was the most perfect date in the world to me. I can still hear the crackle of the fire as I held you in my arms to keep us warm and the feeling that I never wanted that moment to end.

You hear people talk of a perfect moment when everything in life just feels right, for me I think this was my first of many and I have you to thank for that. During that date I gave you my heart and I never want to take it back.

Have you ever...

2010-12-20T12:54:00.000+01:00

Have you ever looked at someone and felt happiness run through your veins?

To have the vision of that person fill every pore of your being and bring you contentment and excitement you have never felt before.

To know that there is nothing you would not do for this one person, nothing you wouldn’t conquer or no foe to overcome.

Have the feeling that you will never be alone even when there is no one around, to close your eyes and feel their hand in yours, their arms round you, their breath on your cheek.

Have you ever taken time to just stop the world when you look into their eyes?

There is not another thing in the world that means as much to you as that person.

You could spend a lifetime looking at nothing but the eyes and you see more than their beauty looking back.

Have you ever let anyone into your soul? Has anyone let you into theirs?

To look and to see so much more, to feel their feelings, their thoughts, their dream is a truly remarkable thing.

Feel the hope and the fears and know everything will be just fine, know that this person has chosen you as you have chosen them to be with entirely forever.

Have you ever seen your future looking back at you?

Seen your feelings reflected, your adoration shared and sent back to you repackaged and multiplied.

To know that this is who and what you want for the rest of your life is something that should be treasured, a wonderfully perfect moment.

See your life fall into place when everything seems so up in the air, have one strand of certainty that fills up the empty spaces and mends all the broken spirits.

Have you ever truly loved and been loved the same way in return?

I have.

Ten things I love about you

2010-12-20T12:45:00.000+01:00

I love the way you always stand by me and support me no matter how difficult the situation.
I love it when I catch you singing when you think I can't hear.
I love the sparkle in your eyes.
I love the fact that you love Disney as much as I do.
I love the way you look at me and see right into my soul.
I love the way you smile and the sound of your laugh.
I love that you show dignity and strength and you don’t even realise that you are doing it.
I love it when you take my hand and squeeze it gently when we walk.
I love the fact that you have never stopped believing that what we have is real.
I love, above all else, everything that makes you the person that you are.