This blog is here to show you how much you mean to me my darling. Since you came into my life I have felt more warmth and happiness than I ever thought possible and this is just one of the ways in which I hope to show you just exactly how much I love you.

Thursday 2 June 2011

Sometimes...

Sometimes it is the smallest of things that can mean the most...Thank you darling, from the bottom of my pirating heart.

Yours forever, C x♥x♥x


Friday 20 May 2011

We just gotta try to...

Cheer up, Sandra. You know what they say.
Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad.
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle,
Don't grumble, give a whistle!
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...
...always look on the bright side of life!

Always look on the bright side of life...
If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten!
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing,

When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps,
Just purse your lips and whistle -- that's the thing!
And... always look on the bright side of life...

Come on!

Always look on the bright side of life...

For life is quite absurd,
And death's the final word.
You must always face the curtain with a bow!
Forget about your sin -- give the audience a grin,
Enjoy it -- it's the last chance anyhow!

So always look on the bright side of death!
Just before you draw your terminal breath.
Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it.

Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true,
You'll see it's all a show,
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you!

And always look on the bright side of life

Always look on the bright side of life

http://youtu.be/WlBiLNN1NhQ ;)

Monday 28 March 2011

Ont...

Finns en liten plats i mitt hjärtat som har ont.

Finns ont därför att jag saknar dig.

Jag älskar dig mer än allt annat, mer än choklad.

Du är mitt allting.

Nu och for alltid.

Puss och kram

Friday 18 March 2011

Thursday 10 March 2011

Get to know me...

As if you don't already!  I just thought seeing as I read yours you might want to see my answers for these questions too:


1. Hur gammal är du om fem år?
36 – gosh how depressing!
2. Vem tillbringade du minst två timmar med i dag?
You my darling
3. Hur lång är du?
5’7” or 171 cm ish!
4. Vilken är den senaste filmen du sett?
She’s all that – not she’s the man!
5. Vem ringde du senast?
You did!
6. Vem ringde dig senast?
You I should imagine
7. Hur löd det senaste sms:et du fick?
Erm – “K x” From Mum!
8. Föredrar du att ringa eller skicka sms?
I always prefer SMS as I hate talking on the phone
9. Är dina föräldrar gifta eller skilda?
Divorced
10. När såg du senast din mamma?
24th September 2010 - ish
11. Vilken ögonfärg har du?
Hazel Brown
12. När vaknade du i dag?
I woke at about 7.40 and then again at 8 when my alarm went off and then again at 8.15 when I finally got up!
13. Vilken är din favoritjulsång?
Mistletoe and Wine by Cliff Richard
14. Vilken är din favoritplats?
Wherever you are but ideally at the Stugan
15. Vilken plats föredrar du minst?
Waiting rooms – just generally and for any reason I really dislike them
16. Var tror du att du befinner dig om tio år?
I will be living with you and our babies, have a nice job where I am happy, if not very well paid enjoying the life we deserve together
17. Vad skrämde dig om natten som barn?
Things under the bed, mainly snakes I think it was
18. Vad fick dig verkligen att skratta senast?
I often have a chortle to myself inside even if I don’t always show it.  I think most recently it was when you suggested a tree was growing out of the planet on my face ;P
19. Hur stor är din säng?
180×200 cm – I will take your word for that one!
20. Har du stationär eller bärbar dator?
Lappie lappie laptop
21. Sover du med eller utan kläder på dig?
It depends on my mood and where I am.  If alone with you at home I am keen on sleeping naked but if anyone else is around I will be maxed out in PJs!
22. Hur många kuddar har du i sängen?
As you know I have 2 but 1 lives mainly on the floor
23. Hur många landskap har du bott i?
Is that countries or counties? I have technically lived in 3 countries and 5 counties.
24. Vilka städer har du bott i?
Chester, Durham, Leeds, York, Dyserth, Umeå
25. Föredrar du skor, strumpor eller barfota?
I get chilly toes or else I would be barefoot more often.  I guess it depends where I am and what I am doing – I am hardly going to walk the dog barefoot in -30 now am I!
26. Är du social?
Not so much anymore, I think working for myself has turned me into a bit of a recluse, I am happy to be sociable but not very good at feeling comfortable with it.
27. Vilken är din favoritglass?
Pralines and Cream Haagen-Dazs (hilarious spell check picked that up and corrected it!)
28. Vilken är din favoritefterrätt?
Hmm tricky – I am thinking your blueberry pie actually wins out these days although previously it was a tossup between apple crumble and lemon meringue pie
29. Tycker du om kinamat?
Hell yeah I do, ideally in buffet form – bring on the noodlies!
30. Tycker du om kaffe?
Yes and if the kettle is on then yes please!!
31. Vad dricker du till frukost?
A cup of tea often is my entire breakfast and I can’t function properly through the day if I miss it!
32. Sover du på någon särskild sida?
Now that depends on how you define sides – if looking AT The bed I sleep on the left but in bed it is the right – let’s just say I sleep with you  on my left! Although this can vary as I tend to sleep closest to the door to keep you safe from intruders, least they would get me first.
33. Kan du spela poker?
I can play Texas Hold em and try my best at Chicago but I still don’t really get that
34. Tycker du om att mysa/kela?
Nah! Joking, of course I do, no better feeling than snuggling with you sweetheart
35. Är du en beroendemänniska?
Is that asking if I am dependable? I would have to say yes, I would rather chew on my tongue than let people down
36. Känner du någon med samma födelsedag som din?
Nope, although my cousin is the day after mine and his wife the day after that
37. Vill du ha barn?
Yes, as soon as possible, I would love to have little ones running round and it makes me smile from the inside out just to think about it
38. Kan du några andra språk än svenska?
I can get by with English if I have to and can order a baguette in French!
39. Har du någonsin åkt ambulans?
No and am in no rush to change that
40. Föredrar du havet eller en bassäng?
Pool, at least you know what’s at the bottom of that and the only slimy thing to brush against your legs is the pool guy!
41. Vad spenderar du helst pengar på?
I would spend my last penny on you my darling
42. Äger du dyrbara smycken?
Not especially.  The bracelet from Mum, my ring from you and that is about all really.
43. Vilket är ditt favoritprogram på tv?
Grey’s of course, and friends and big bang and glee
44. Kan du rulla med tungan?
Hehe, yes, want me to show you?!
45. Vem är den roligaste människan du känner?
My brother as long as I am in the right mood for it, he is a bit of a nutter
46. Sover du med gosedjur?
Yes, you! Kidding I only sleep with you my love although if I am blue sometimes Ninny might sneak in too
47. Vad har du för ringsignal?
I think I am back to The Killers Mr Brightside, your ringtone is Everytime We Touch
48. Har du kvar klädesplagg från då du var liten?
I used to have a cute sunhat which I kept in my chest of drawers from when I was a baby that Aunty Sally made me but I have no idea where it is now after all the moves
49. Vad har du närmast dig just nu som är rött?
My jumper, well technically your jumper but shhhh
50. Flirtar du mycket?
No, I don’t flirt, I am just naturally charming ;)
51. Kan du byta olja på bilen?
Haha, wouldn’t know where to start but I bet I could in an emergency if I had the internet handy
52. Har du fått fortkörningsböter någon gång?
Yes, shame shame.  3 points  and a £60 fine in 2006
53. Vilken var den senaste boken du läste?
Hmm I am reading Demons and Angels by Dan Brown now, I can’t remember the one before that?
54. Läser du dagstidningen?
Not usually.  I occasionally read The Daily Mail online or The bbc or Aftonbladet or VK
55. Prenumererar du på någon veckotidning?
No -  I used to get the Beano monthly, does that count?!
56. Dansar du i bilen?
I would given half the chance, love a boogy and sing when speeding around
57. Vilken radiostation lyssnade du till senast?
Mix Megapoooool I think
58. Vad var det senaste du krafsade ner på ett papper?
Notes about a clients website
59. När var du i kyrkan senast?
The Christening of young Vincent in January 2009 I think
60. Vem var din favoritlärare på högstadiet?
Hmm, Mr Tierny the drama teacher, mainly because he was good at coming up with excuses to get us out of other classes!
61. Hur länge har du campat som längst i ett tält?
I have camped for a week on many occasions, mainly with guides but as a grown up too.
62. Vem var det som senast gjorde något extra speciellt för dig?
You my darling, you smiled at me just as I needed a lift
63. Vad lyssnar du på just nu?
Me typing – good point, let’s have some music
64. Har du varit med i tidningen?
Yes, I was in the local Swedish paper when I turned 30 (!!!) and I was in the paper when I won the Young Entrepreneur of the Year in 2003.  I was in a few times when I was younger in local papers for fund raising and sports stuff
65. Vad är det konstigaste du ätit?
Tricky, Oh erm, what’s it called – nipponsoppar?! Never again!
66. Vem såg dig naken senast?
You – or does the dog count?!
67. Vad är det för färg på din tandborste?
Purple and yellow is it?!
68. Hur imponerar man på dig?
I am impressed when people smile through adversity and see the positives when most others would see the dark
69. Vem ringer du när du är arg/ledsen?
I would talk to you wherever you were so I guess that would involve calling sometimes, shouting seems a bit extreme if we aren’t together
70. Har du någon piercing?
I do, but just my ears
71. Din största vinst?
My goldfish won 2nd prize in a pet contest when I was 8?  I guess winning the Young Entrepreneur Award was pretty major.  
72. Civilstånd?
Engaged, soon to be married
73. Vilka hemsidor besöker du dagligen?
Hotmail, Facebook – That’s all really regularly
74. Är du fåfäng?
Not so much vain as I don’t really care what I look like, although ideally I want to look nice.  I am more proud than vain – I want to feel proud of myself which I suppose is a form of vanity just not so much in the physical sense.  Although I do get paranoid about my weight and people whispering about me or thinking I am awful, does that make me vain?
75.  Ångrar du någonting du gjort?
Unfortunately quite a lot. Mainly financially related and stupid decisions made.  I mainly regret going through with the house purchase in Dyserth or not selling it 4 years ago when I moved.  I also regret losing touch with so many friends over the years.
76. Hur gammal är din pappa?
I have no idea! 61 or 62 – 61 I think!?
77. Vilket är ditt drömjobb?
I am not sure. In some ways I have my dream job but I know I can’t hold onto it.  Right now my dream job would be doing what I do now but getting paid a monthly salary with benefits for it.  Failing that I will take anything I can get to support my family and make our dreams come true.
78. Finns det något du verkligen skulle vilja göra men inte haft tillfälle, tid eller råd till?
The main thing I want to do that I haven’t yet though is have children and build a family.  I would like to travel more too and see more places.
79. Vad har du haft för husdjur under ditt liv?
Hmm, Rabbits (3 over a number of years I think), a gold fish (The one that own the award!), a cat called Elliot (which came to a tragic demise on our driveway when mum was parking one day), peggy (partly) and of course Cassie
80. Berätta tre saker som dina läsare antagligen inte vet om dig?
This is tricky as I am quite sure you know everything there is to know about me.
1) I think I prefer diet coke to regular!!!
2) I wish I could change who I am or something about me about 12 times a day
3) I am terrified of letting you down and taking you away from your family to a life you will hate.
81. Svär du ofta?
Yes, I am a proper potty mouth
82. Sverige när det är som bäst?
Long summer days at the stugan, bathing and reading and chilling.  Although I do love the snow too
83. Kan du åka slalom?
Nope! Not that I have tried but looking at the mountain last week made my knees wobble, I don’t think I could take the height and speed combination!
84. Vad har du ätit i dag?
A surprisingly nice bowl of noodlies
85. Vad har du för utbildning?
I have a University degree – BA (Hons) Psychology, 4 A levels and 9 GCSE’s
86. Vilken kroppsdel är du mest nöjd med?
It used to be my back but then it got back fat.  I think maybe my eyes but they also depress me sometimes as they get such dark circles.  Boobs maybe? They don’t let me down, yet!
87. Vilken kroppsdel är du minst nöjd med?
My fat belly, bum, arms, face and thighs
88. Vilken är din bästa egenskap?
I care. I care about people, how they feel and how they are, often too much.  I find it nearly impossible to turn my back on someone.
89. Vilken är din sämsta egenskap?
Self-doubt.  I find it incredibly hard to believe in myself and have self confidence.  I second guess everything I do, think and say and am convinced my opinions are either wrong, to be questioned or not of importance anyway.  Pride could be another bad one, sometimes it blinds me to knowing what is best.
90. Nämn två historiska personer som intresserar dig?
Mozart and Shakespeare
91. Saknar du något?
I miss the confidence I once possessed.  I used to think I could change the world but not in an arrogant way.  Once I walked into a room and didn’t care if I was noticed and so usually was, now I slink in and out of rooms hoping no one will see.
92. Är det viktigt att fira födelsedagar?
I am not a fan of my own birthday as I never remember any really good ones growing up and feel awkward being the centre of attention at my own celebrations. I think it is important to celebrate other peoples though and like to try and make people feel special and spoilt.
93. Vad gör dig ledsen?
Ignorance and undeserved meanness
94. Vad gör dig glad?
Making you smile will always make me happy.  Experiencing new things with you and seeing you laugh
95. Har du varit gift eller förlovad?
Yes enagaged
96. Vad ska du göra i helgen?
Watch the final of Melodifestivalen of course, drink one or two beers? Maybe see some friends or family? If not then take you and our dog for a lovely walk
J
97. Vad är det knasigaste du gjort?
Jumping from a 21 meter bridge into a river?  Not facing up to life sooner would probably be more daft in reality.
98. Vad har du för laster?
Eating stuff that isn’t exactly healthy…but it tastes so good!
99. Vem är din förebild?
I don’t actually think I have one.  Any normal person who picks themselves up from the depths of adversity to come back stronger than before.
100. Vad ska du göra när du svarat klart på alla frågor?
Take fatty fat for her walkie and give you a kiss my darling xx

How many did you guess right?!  Am I the person you thought I was?! xx


Monday 14 February 2011

Will you be my Valentine?

Remember on our first valentine
When we went out intent to dine
Your mum showed up, it didn’t matter
We barely ate, we got no fatter!

That night will always be something true
As that was the time I promised to you
All that I am and all that I’ve got
I’m afraid I’m not much and that’s not a lot!

You’ve stuck by me through thick and thin
To think of it makes my heart grin
I don’t deserve what you do for me
Into my life you brought me Glee!

I may not be the great romantic
And often I am quite pedantic
But in my heart I’m Casanova
Always for you I would bend over…

I’ll never know how I deserve
To be with you, you little perv
I thank whatever brought us two
Together this way, I really do.

I joke and banter but you know
From your side I’ll never go.
We’re stuck together me and you
Tack och lov for super glue!

The year of two thousand and eight
Brought us our first wonderful date
I stand here now in twenty eleven
To say being with you is like being in heaven.

The time is here to be straight and true
And declare how much I do love you
My angel, my princess, my love, my dream
Nothing comes close - you are supreme.